THAN YOU LORD FOR MAKING ME STRONG.

I will never ever give up this life no matter how hard it will be and even if all hopes is gone, I'll hold on.


Yesterday, I heard the news about the girl who committed suicide in Atrium because of her problems and I don't know what it is. When I heard the story, I felt sorry for her and for her family. She could have moved on in whatever she is going through and try to ask God to help in her problems. But she gave up and ended up committing suicide.

I realized, that I am strong. Because, I've been through so many things in life. I've cried and cried a million times. I've got hurt, I've been with a psychiatrist. Someday, if you'll know my life story, maybe you should tell me that I should be in the mental hospital right now.


BUT NO. Here I am now, I am okay in spite of all the hurts inside of me, I still manage to wake up and thank God for things that is going right. I'm still BLESSED. Because God gave me reasons to be happy.

I may cry again, get hurt again, but one thing is for sure: I WILL NEVER GIVE UP THIS LIFE. Because, I run the race for my God and not for myself.

I'm happy today because, there are many things that happened in my life today. Not all the things but mostly. In school, I got perfect in my math seatwork because my friend teach me to factors trinomials and etc. Since math is my biggest downfall, and I rarely get perfect scores, I was so happy that I got 10/10. :)
And earlier, we ate dinner as a family in a restaurant (I forgot the name). I was just so thankful to God that He made my family whole and happy again. Thank you Lord for everything. :D

KABUG'AT SA CHEST.

Here I am now, sitting in front of my computer isolating myself from all that has happened. I'm so much in pain right now.:(( I JUST KEEPON LISTENING TO MUSIC TO MAKE ME STRONG. AND PRAY TO GOD OF COURSE.

God gave me you for the up's and downs.

I never thought I would meet someone like her. Someone I can tell all my secrets to, someone that I can express,  laugh with, and cry with. And she's the friend of mine that is closest to my heart. Gisela Matutina.

I like her because she's a good person. I like her because with her, I can relate. We only knew each other this year. I still remembered how we started talking. I opened up to her something that bothered me for the past few months, and she shared her story similar to mine too.

In her, I can see something that I cannot see in my other friends. You know that understanding that no one else could understand. Like, talking to her you can feel so aahh I cannot explain it. She never judged me of what I am, I never heard her complaining of how long I can talk to her. She is a good person. 

I know that she loves me because, she is always there for me. Isang text o tawag lang. 

I know that she loves me because, she always defend me to other people. For example: She talked to this friend of mine to stop making rumors about me and like stop hurting me with the things that I didn't do.

SO I WILL END THIS STORY OF MINE WITH A QUOTATION I SAW IN THE INTERNET.

"When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be alright, alright."

                                                        - Third Eye Blind