THAN YOU LORD FOR MAKING ME STRONG.

I will never ever give up this life no matter how hard it will be and even if all hopes is gone, I'll hold on.


Yesterday, I heard the news about the girl who committed suicide in Atrium because of her problems and I don't know what it is. When I heard the story, I felt sorry for her and for her family. She could have moved on in whatever she is going through and try to ask God to help in her problems. But she gave up and ended up committing suicide.

I realized, that I am strong. Because, I've been through so many things in life. I've cried and cried a million times. I've got hurt, I've been with a psychiatrist. Someday, if you'll know my life story, maybe you should tell me that I should be in the mental hospital right now.


BUT NO. Here I am now, I am okay in spite of all the hurts inside of me, I still manage to wake up and thank God for things that is going right. I'm still BLESSED. Because God gave me reasons to be happy.

I may cry again, get hurt again, but one thing is for sure: I WILL NEVER GIVE UP THIS LIFE. Because, I run the race for my God and not for myself.

I'm happy today because, there are many things that happened in my life today. Not all the things but mostly. In school, I got perfect in my math seatwork because my friend teach me to factors trinomials and etc. Since math is my biggest downfall, and I rarely get perfect scores, I was so happy that I got 10/10. :)
And earlier, we ate dinner as a family in a restaurant (I forgot the name). I was just so thankful to God that He made my family whole and happy again. Thank you Lord for everything. :D

KABUG'AT SA CHEST.

Here I am now, sitting in front of my computer isolating myself from all that has happened. I'm so much in pain right now.:(( I JUST KEEPON LISTENING TO MUSIC TO MAKE ME STRONG. AND PRAY TO GOD OF COURSE.

God gave me you for the up's and downs.

I never thought I would meet someone like her. Someone I can tell all my secrets to, someone that I can express,  laugh with, and cry with. And she's the friend of mine that is closest to my heart. Gisela Matutina.

I like her because she's a good person. I like her because with her, I can relate. We only knew each other this year. I still remembered how we started talking. I opened up to her something that bothered me for the past few months, and she shared her story similar to mine too.

In her, I can see something that I cannot see in my other friends. You know that understanding that no one else could understand. Like, talking to her you can feel so aahh I cannot explain it. She never judged me of what I am, I never heard her complaining of how long I can talk to her. She is a good person. 

I know that she loves me because, she is always there for me. Isang text o tawag lang. 

I know that she loves me because, she always defend me to other people. For example: She talked to this friend of mine to stop making rumors about me and like stop hurting me with the things that I didn't do.

SO I WILL END THIS STORY OF MINE WITH A QUOTATION I SAW IN THE INTERNET.

"When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be alright, alright."

                                                        - Third Eye Blind

WELCOME TO THE WORLD WHERE NO ONE IS GOOD ENOUGH.

SORRY THE WORLD IS CRUEL. HANG IN THERE.

Dear Diary,

I'M BIPOLAR. K

OH YEAH, exams are coming up and I need to make up my grades. I really need to work hard and hard hard.

:)

Dear Diary,

Just ate dinner. I'm full. Oh yeah, should we say.. SATISFIED. It is raining outside and I'm so cold. :3 I need human warmth. I'm craving for hot choco in McDo. :') GEECJJFKSJFKS

Dear Diary,

Today, I feel so asssjsfjjffjmkajfkdhgjdgnksdgn :||| And I'm speechless KBYE

INSANE

All this time of my life
I've been lonely
Since the day you said goodbye
I have nothing but misery

Why oh why did you leave?
Lover, you said I am your life
So tell me now,
how do you breathe without life?
You play dead? HUH?

I miss you
I miss you

And it just hurts like hell

Dear Diary,

Tonight, I just don't feel so right. It's cold and I have nothing to do but surf the net and eat some chips. My day was awesome, I enjoyed a lot in school and ate meryenda with family @SM and went to Starbucks. I drank my coffee alone. And I was okay. But tonight, I feel so alone and well.. Sad. And I don't know why.

OK SPEECHLESS

MY FAMILY

"Ohana means family, family means no one is left behind"

-Stitch

NOW, let me tell you about my family. First of all we are four in the family, I am the eldest among two. My parents are both businessmen. They handle our business and gets our daily needs there. My Dad is graduated as a CPA in USA and mom graduated HRM in UP. My parents are both intelligent & good in math. And sometimes, I wonder why I am not. :)

Well, my family is not a perfect family. But for me, we are a strong family. We have experienced many challenges through the years or should I say PAIN. My Dad became not-so-good when I was small until I grew up. He has hurt mom and all of us. He has been away from us 3 times for 8 months just for him to have treatment and recover from his not-so-good behavior. I've been hurt a lot and got mad at him. For him not being a responsible & caring father to me.But after his treatment,through God's mercy, He brought Dad again to us and changed Him for the better. And there he started to reconcile us and make us happy again.

My Mom is a very strong woman. I can say that, she is a SUPERWOMAN because she hang on for us. Even if it caused her pain and misery being with Dad before, she told me that she will hang on for us because she loves us and never wants our family to be broken.




We are a Christian Family. We put God in the center of our lives, in our home, and business. We praise God altogether and gather strength from Him. As for now, we are still in the healing process. But, we are happy and we do believe that time will come there will be a complete healing and forgiveness in our hearts.


THIS ARE MY PARENTS

THIS IS MY SISTER

MY FUN & CHALLENGING JOURNALISM CLASS

My journalism class with Sir Gerano is very fun & challenging. Although, he's strict, he's funny, and inspirational. The first time I saw him, my sister told me that he is very strict and he gets angry when he caught his students yawning, and stretching. And she even gave me his lines like: "I wasn't born yesterday" and more.When I heard her story, I was very nervous to yawn in his class and do other things. But after weeks of having journalism classes, I find him fun & for me, he is perfectionist. Because, for me, there's nothing more important to him but correct grammar. :D




I enjoy our journalism class because, I learn a lot from him. Like, being updated on what's happening to the world, know more about our filipino journalists, know about NEWS media, and what P.H.D means. ;)







All I can say is I want to learn more and more everyday. 

It's hard to be positive when nothing ever goes right. But, you need to live. 

You need to breathe. Sadness we can't control that. But being miserable is a choice.

This is my favorite part of the movie. It made me burst into tears. 

YUM! YUM! I want to taste this :P

Sometimes, it's just tiring but FUN! HAHAH. :P

IT'S NOT LATE TO START AGAIN.

Just let go of it.

I'm letting go of my fears, I will let go of all the things that will bring me down. CLOSE  you eyes, CLEAR your heart, let it go. When I first read this at tumblr, I re blogged it immediately. Because, I like what it says. It sounds refreshing. Actually, when I saw this picture I was so down and I'm hurt. I'm searching for things that I can pass the time and this is what I did. Browse for pictures in tumblr. Then a realization came, I realized, that sometimes it's okay to cry when you can't stand the pain anymore. You cry not because you're weak but because, your tired of being strong all the time. Knowing, after you cried you'll feel better and the weight of your sadness will decrease.